Had been thinking alot this few days, when I am at home rotting ,
and Working.

Cant be understand.
Cant be explain.
Its just complicated.

In other way round, been learning alot of new experiences and knowledge.
Mostly gained from working.
Know more about the society circles.


Today, suddenly out of random of no where, I decided to tidy up my room and
meanwhile packing up my stuff, Looking through all my pass few years hardwork put in
on either my homework assesment or my written test \\ course work and so on.

Something struck me -
After all this work, if I fail my 'O's
What will happen.

I do not know.
Do not know anything about the future.
I just hope.

Then I carry on packing and tidying up.
I saw a few little notes hand-made by my beloved friends.
Those encourage words, advices... and so on.
I got a feeling, that cant be explain out.
This feeling gives warmth.
Happy to have friends like them.


" Jia You for O's ! "

" Your Chinese O's is here soon ! even though I can give much advices but hope you will do well ! "

" All the best ! "

and much more.


the most confusing thing I am facing now is my,
emotional problem.
Am I going out of the circle?
or... I am just plain confuse?

Wait... Stop saying I am "EMO-ing"...
If you are a mature reader, you will understand.


thats all, nostalgical and reflective post.

LOL -
I just notice that my tagboard got a advertisement tag.
I wonder why they tag my board sia-
Is like nobody will go to their blog, as mine is as dead.
Anyway~
Had 2 Jobs now.
1st one you guys should know already.
2nd one is @ pastamania.
As which pastamania, I shall not say out-
Later some people come stalk :P
booHoo ~

Well, today had a off day. Thanks boss for letting me off for 1 day.
Can enjoy abit.


Well to finish off my post for today.
I wanna say that, Hey.
I am open to anything.
Just share with me alright.
I can be as mature &
I can be as wild.

So count me in on anything!

Hey guys !
Just back from work and finish eating.
So Hungry :)

Anyway !
I was thinking if I should dye my hair.
So what do you guys think?
Any colour that is suitable for ME?
rofl.
Anyway, I still finding my phone cable,
still no where to be seen.
Alot of pictures wanted to upload also cannot.
Hais !

Nevermind -
Now my target is to work and earn as much $ as I can.
Then save it up, and be HAPPY later :P
Second, if possible, as what YUANSIANG said -.-
Find a GIRLFRIEND LOH !
Ha, but all this is see fate larh :)
I won't ask for much -

My ideal girlfriend aar-
Hmm -

- presentable
- caring and filial
- Not those $ face and spend boyfriend $ like 'fountain'. [$.$]'
- absolutetly NO BITCH
- not taller than me of course
- not that stupid , but also not too smart
- KNOW HOW TO COOK !
- wash laundry ! LOL
- gentle
- Must sometime rebellious but not that rebellious larh :<
- most of all KIND



okay larh-
i know my ideal GF a lil too much.
but after all ~ I AM STILL YOUNG :P
still got time -
ha ha ha ~

and my friend ask me, when i will get married.
Well, marriage is a lifelong thing, and takes serious commitment.
OF course, i take marriage very importantly.
but frankly saying. I won't get into a marriage until
until....


I got myself a
- HOUSE of my own [takes quite long ] which is like very long...
- CAR of my own
- steady income which is like so steady until when i get retire =X
(haha just kidding larh, JOB is like luck, get fire also cant do anything =x )

- at least a 100k in my bank for my COFFIN

and and and...

until i finish fooling around ( which almost all MAN does. )
[which i may not and may, depends on my future]-
& till maybe I reach 29 year old?

by that time, i think all MAN should still be Strong enough :P

ALRIGHT!
we shall stop here.
till next time !
adios.

Greetings People !
Been sometime yea.
Hmm -
Well, pretty obvious that I had just finished my O levels-
& I think most likely I will retain -
Haha, but who cares. What is done had been done.
As we all know that we should look forward and move on with our lifes.

Thus people always shout it out loud " GET A LIFE ".
Never ever staying back & wait .
Never ever look backs when it's too late.
Stay strong and hold your stand.

I am gonna get back to my busy working routine real soon, most probably as soon as tomorrow :)

Its a Singtel job, something like promoting stuff.



well, nothing much, today went out with one of my regular friends, whom we had been like hanging out for quite sometimes throughout last year till now. Always had been good friends, much more better now I guess, as we had been growing up and knowing more on Human lifes.....
Actually watched Rec with them, a NC16 show.
Truthfully, those who are 16, I seriously recommend you to watch.
It will scare your whaTever organs you had out.
MAN- I am almost 85% of the whole show covering my eyes larh.



GOD SAKE !
\\ Right, I know larh, I not man enough - YOU VERY MAN MEH! rofl .
Well really catch it - and tell me how is it >:P

after that went for a short shopping spree-
once again, no items have caught my eyes today, thus didn't buy anything.
So yup -

Anyway ,
I WANT TO DANCE !
SO who ever out there reading this .
And you have some dancing club or class or whatever it is.
Do tell me in details !
I would like to join !

Even tho I am abit stiff ><"


right thats all about it.
Till next time

toooodooooooossss.
btw, i f**king come find my phone cable >< how to upload PIC!

Doink !
BoinK !


-



YO!
Sweat-
Finish Chinese Paper :)
Left a few more to go -

Anyway ;
Got something to share >:)

don't go blind!














look at that PIC-

is it moving or..
NOT?
Hahs, its for you to find out-
for me to know :D

20+ days since i post.

Just plain lazy.
Update a lil of my blog.
Will be back active to blog again, soon.
Hopefully.


Today went to my friend house to study,
well, eventually end up having some craps !
Amusing.
But before I reached his house.
It was like raining cats and dogs.
So I stupid lorh -
Great *

Went to take a big umbrella and run through the Rain,
-Damn should had wait the rain to stop-

So I RUN!
then halfway, i checked my handphone -
FLABBERGASTED-ly.

it was LOST!
I went around to find it -
walk up walk down 4 times.
in the rain...
then you know what - my eye tak STAMP as always.
It was drop in the middle of the road ;
EXACTLY at the WHITE LINE.
And those who know, my phone is black and white in colour-
Thus camoflaging it.
Damn-
now its had become wet chicken - with me too of course.
Hope it will work, now putting aside to dry it.
HAH! my phone went for a swim -.- *SMIRK*
Well, lets pray well that I can get through this obstacle.

Anyway, I am inlove
with HINATA <3


till next time !

STUDY TIME

Anyone?

A Doll ;
Is a feelingless thing.
Emotionless ;
Senseless.

When a person is feeling sad and have no one to chat with,
He/She will approach this once abandon doll and chat with it.
When a person have another person to click with.
This person will throw away this doll.

Hey ;
I Am Not A Doll to be throw as you like, or
take and huggle when you like.


Anyway ;
Happy Birthday Shaun!
Sorry for bringing you trouble today :)
Sweet 16!

Got Back Result .
Not well done.

As Layla Ask about how will I look after my hair cut.
Well, I got a few shot with my Web Cam,
As my phone is still not fix!
Gahh. How many weeks already?
I guess if its you, yes you.
You cant survive without a phone right... :P

I am not looking forward for that.
And you know what you did.
And you should know what you should do.


totally spoil my day after hearing all those stuff.

Hey Fellows,
I am finally back to post.
Anyone miss my post.
I don't think so x=

Anyway,
Hmm, Let me recall -

Saturday went over to malaysia.
Was boring at first. As need to sit for a long ride before reaching.
So while rotting inside the car -
Look outside see see the nice view.
Malaysia is still the same as before, chaotic and dangerous in some sense.
But well, it is still a nice place to be at, as you will get to experience
a new lifestyle other than Singapore which is all 'LAW by LAW'.



See see Look Look,
didn't realise so fast reach my grandma house liao.
First step in ;
" Kai MA! " Meaning (God-Mum)
" Po PO! "
then see this cousin of mine - DAMN playful one. Haha.
But grew up liao ar, more and more handsome luhs.
Then I ask him,
Still remember me anot -
He say ' OFCUZ '
Then *grab* my TOOT.
Playful right he! rofl...
But he very cute de lorh haha.

- Anyway, slack around until around 10.30pm -
Then my mum say, go out eat.
So went to eat " Mian Fen Gui "
Some-kind of noodle that is slice-slice one. [Aiya, don't know how to explain]
After finish eating, the playful imp whisper to me
"kor- Want to play ]]KS[[ "
Then I think, what is KS?!
Then he say " there the shoot shoot one -
Then i know, AH! Kounter Strike Ar?
HE SAY " YES YES"
Then I was HAHAHHA. okok lets go bah -
" then he very happy happy, say treat me, becuz his mum, which is my God mum gave him
$50 bucks " then drag me and run around the road " like the road he buy one -.-

Then went in, waaa-
Psst tell you guys what, Malaysia LAN is much better than SG lan.
The Standard I think more better than PC-bunk and much more LOOK like a LAN shop.
3 floor still, and tell you what, the price is 2.5/hr which is around 1.20DollarSG?

Then the Sound system is like -
Wooshh~
BIANG BIANG BIANG !
BOM BOMB bom-

Then went in saw my few cousin there playing liao
Wa- I like their living lifestyle man.
DAMN-

All DOTA-ing.
Ok I know I noob- Shuddap. Don't Smirk you idiot.

Play play play- Went back.
No choice la, NO BUS marh, have to walk back.
But I think I enjoy the walking than sitting on bus.
It gives another type of feeling.
While walking, and chatting with my Cousins .
The feeling is like, relaxing- Destress. Forgot everything, and just pure chatting
and laughter and aiya... one word.. HAPPY.

Then read the gate.
waaa - All my nephew and cousin playing candle liao.
Then i faster go bath and join them
But firstly
EAT!

Play play play-
Then of cuz the adult playing Majong la,
Standard one -.-

Slack slack slack.
Then Sleep.
The the little imp ask me tml morning we go again OK?
Then i tell him " I cannot wake up how"
He say " I Punch u wake up lorr "
Then i tickle him lol...

funny sia.

Tml morning- [Sunday]

He really wake me up and kick and tickle me up.
Bo bian, he win lor -.-

Follow him blur blurr to the LAN shop.
He like so happy larh- dunnoe him. LOL

Play Play Play-
Abit tired, so went to mcdonald buy ICEcream eat.
Then LAN again.

Then Play until no more, walk back home again.
Slack until 4+pm
All decided to go my cousin dancing practice place.
Then went to see, how he dance [Break-Dance]
Tell you what..
I think After O level I gonna go Learn Dancing
I wanna try Popping
Like the Robot dance you know?
F**king NICE LOR !

+ the Rocking music ,
Bom bom bom ~ WOOHOO, siok.
Who got any Lobang.
I am seriously, after O level jio me go.
Then the Dancer also teach me a few move.
Really hard la x= Cause teach me a few minutes only.
Another saying ; Practice make perfect.
So ya!
Kaka x=

Eh, seriously jio me to learn dancing if u guys want a person to accompany.
ASK ME!
for JASON sake LOL

after went to eat merrybrown.
Then went home eat SteamBoat.
THEN play hide-n-seek with my little cousin and nephews.
So cute la they all.

oh ya- Before that,
I went for a hairCUT :)
F-O-C
Cause one of my cousin is a hairStylist.
So give me a free cut lorh.
Kaka x=


AfterALL-
Nice trip , really enjoy it.
Thinking about it-
Really miss them
All grow up liao
LengZai(Handsome) & LengLui(Beautiful).

Will see you all again?
Maybe
xmas?
Chinese new year?
I dont' know.

ILY guys !

DAMN- stupid phone.. why spoil. if not i will be taking photos.
F**king shyt lol.

Then Monday -
Was late for sch,
Becuz Msia back home around 2+
Then cant wake up.
So 11+ went to sch for last few lesson.
But nevermind larh, Got go better than nv go right -.-

Know my DNT result.
very Terrible , Horrible. Vegetable -.-

But, okay larh, One of the top few.
But I think I can do better.
Oh well, nevermind, what is done is already done.

After sch decided with my sch mates at night
go play candles.
So ya, back from "CAMPfire" session .
If you guys know what i meant LOL.

Once again
DAMN- Stupid phone -.-

So ye, thats about it.
Tml is sch Holiday-
Only for our sch,
As we got a few rewards for sch-
So principal mood happy.
Give up 1 day off.
KAKAKA!

Plan to go LAN tml morning.
- WOW, like LAN-ing Week sia -.-
till next time!
Adios!

Went over to KS hse to stay over.
A few days ago.

This Gua ar.
Take care of yourself la !
Get well soon.

Yesterday went out and in from home and out again...

KS came my house to rot from 12 + till 3+
Then went to meet gary.
Reach cwp ...
Went around window shopping with ks.
He wanted to buy a longsleeve pullover?
Went up and down, but in the end , decided to eat first.
Went for Pizza x=
I am totally broke.
Oh well.

While eating, gary came along.
Sat there quietly.
He looks like a quiet person eh :P

After "breakfast"
went to look around for the pullover again.
Then finally decided to buy one at John Little.
A black "S" size one.
Which after he bought, he think that it is VERY small.

Okay Skip that part.

Then went to meet guo korkor.
Actually for badminton,
but we were late.
so Sorry !
So we decided to go for dinner, since its already quite late.
After that chat chat chat, went for shopping again.
That Shopping king, bought another pullover and a t +
a Wallet @ wallet shop.

Shopping king...


After that we seperated,
KS went to take bus,
and me and Guo kor went to take MRT.
We sat on top of the platform and chatted for a long 1 hour.
Till we decided to board the train.
Found out more about him.
So hopefully can know more about him next time we meet again.

//
mix feeling ;
i don't know its true or not.
but ...
i am still confuse.

Hello !
I am back !
Today went back to school for science pratical exam.
Actually I was in shift 2,
but I went early, so got into shift 1.
Hahas, so early release.
After that, slack slack slack slack ...
and continue slack...
finally decide to go to orchard for movies and walkwalk
with my classmates.

But before we go back home to change.
Play basketball for awhile.
Well, my team win :D
All thanks to linus !
The pro.
Oh well, I know I am novice ; just scored ONCE x=

after went out, shower and get ready.
went for movie ;
Journey to the center of the earth.
Something like that larh, forgot what the exact.
Overall NICE. ICHIBAN!
Oh btw ; that actor guy is cute ^^
Hoho :P

Before movie,
went for arcade.
Playplayplay.
After Movie,
went for pool.
Playplayplay,
after that went to kinokuya ;
look for books,
& i decided to buy a comic !
Woohoo!
Here you guys go !
It was the first episode ; and my first comic.
I think I gonna chase after this comic, have not read through out yet,
but the cover page seems interesting and nice .
I like those fantasy fighting magic type one ; KAKAKA.
'A Brave Heart Of REDROSE'.



& now I am really broke.
Left $12 bucks.
I Don't know how Am i going to survive for this week for 12 DOLLAR.
Dun believe...



Eh...
I swear.. only left 12 bucks.
Thats about today.
Went home and reach home around 10.30pm
Nice day AHEAD :)

Hey hey !
Such a boring day x=
Can anyone jio me out


PLS!
I know i no phone la.
Contact me on msn leh LOL.

Oh I took a Depression test taken from one of my friend BLOG!
oh my What is this Dysthymia Thingy ; AMUSING!

Disorder	Your Score
Major Depression:	Slight-Moderate
Dysthymia:	High-Moderate
Bipolar Disorder:	Very Slight
Cyclothymia:	Slight-Moderate
Seasonal Affective Disorder:	Very Slight
Postpartum Depression:	N/A
Take the Depression Test

i gonna google it and find it out!

Back to post !
Prelims are over.
DNT project Practical are done.
1 Week of Holiday !
What a relief.

Today is a very busy day for me.
First went to meet KS at bpp.
Went to eat Long John with him for lunch.
I am really broke. omg.

Then we chat chat chatted for awhile.
after that went walk walk with him to his house.
He needed to change to go work. so waited for him.
& he did something to me -
I gonna revenge him someday when I can run faster.
After that went off TPY to meet my friends

Met a few new friends.
Had a meeting with them about some stuff.
An Organisation which interest me.
Hopefully it will be successful !

We had discussion from 3 till 6pm.
5 mins break in between.
So thats like 2 hour and 55 mins.
Well overall all of us contributed few ideas.
Thats great.
Hopefully we wil be successful Ye !
Right guys !

After that went for dinner.
Chat a lil.
Then went back home at 8+

Nice day -


when can i get a answer from u...

Prelims are still on going.
I am really feeling the stress I never had felt
this few years of my secondary school life.
My first time studying till 3am in the morning and going to school at 5am.
I am really tired.
But I cant stop.

I gonna flunk my Prelim,
as I weighted...
My O level DNT is much more important than Prelim.
And I still think I still got alot of things to add in.
But I do not know what is missing.
Presentationboard was planned to be done by last week.
Till now I have not even touch it.
Looking at all my friends finishing one by one.
I feel left out, right far behind them.
The submission date is just round the corner.
& I had not done much.

Help!

2 more days.
I hope I won't fall down.

A few of my friends had fall down.
Sick after one another.
Injured.

Will the next one be me.
I don't know.

Getting more pimples because of tonnning night.
Going back home from school every day at 6.30pm?
Nearly 7?

I am going to fall really soon, not even I know if i really can
go through this.
My O levels.
Please let me have a good future.

My Phone SPOILED!

Sadded-

So now...
What?
My fault?
I am all to be blame?
Or are you suppose to be responsible?

Hey, This is your own fault that you spoil the computer.
This is not my business.
I also did ask for permission to use from you,
You said no.
I am fine with it.
From then on, I didn't lay my finger on that fucking computer of 'yours'.
So now you play play till the computer spoil,
Is my fault ?

WOW?
Coincidently, few days after the computer spoilt.
You need to do PROJECT.
Whaw?

Do I need to worry for you?
You are the one who is fucking overlimit okay.
And you still dare to say I am "Guo Fen"

So yes, what If i had my laptop.
What if I lock with password.


Yes you ask me for permission to use to do ur project.
I am fine with it.
U said 30 mins.
No problem
30 Mins.
Now you said not enough
Mum ask for 1 Hours.
fine 1 Hours.
I give it to you

Now you fucking shout infront of mum that
" 1 HOUR WHAT TO DO?
YOU GUYS WANT TO DRIVE ME CRAZY RIGHT!? "

Hello...
My problem issit.

SO now mum also fucking blame me for it right.
And Now Nagging about me right.

In the first place we agreed that ,
Fine computer is yours.
This laptop is mine.

Now the fucking computer is spoiled.
And youn fucking cant do ur project.
You come and shout at me .

Hello, I am your BRO, i am not a outsider BASTARD who let you shout at.
Now mum is also fucking shouting at me.
ALL is MY FAULT LA?
You don't have the time management.
Don't have the right attitude.
When there is time for you to do your homework, why you fucking play computer games for the fucking whole day?

Great...
Now wad.
I really HATE girls/Woman
Who Ever is FEMALE



What the hell is the problem.
FUCKING.
I really do not know how to explain.
You are driving me more and more down
and more into hatred to 'WOMAN'

Fucking why am I the only SON in this family.
Dad don't care.
BOCHAP.

I am all alone.
I really hate this.

I feel like crying.
I feel like escaping.
I feel like running away.
I feel like ... killing myself.
I don't wanna live.

but what can I do.
I do not know.
Why?
WHY all this kind happens to me
tml is The First Paper of PRELIM.
I really had no MOOD to study.
WHY.


FUCK you BITCH!
Who wanna fuck a bitch like you.

I have no time to entertain you,
If you are that free, go do something meaningful.

Been real busy with my life.
Play is of course one of the top few list this few weeks I am doing,
But after hearing some advices and some talks by a few of my friends.
I had realise, hey those thing you promise yourself, you had not done yet.

Prelim is next Week.
And I am still struggling with my O level DNT.
Of course, O level is much more weighing and important than Prelim.
But Prelim is the last round of test to proove that I am worth it
for being an Express student.
for being an O level student.

I got back my O level chinese result.
Its Total Failure (Fiasco).
I don't know why am I so indolent.

Yes, I got a B4.
I had high hope for my mother tongue result,
as it is the only few subject that I am really good in.
And I got a B4 ...
Really dissapointed.
I was smiling, smiling all the while,
Yes It is just a mask on my face.
But how can I wipe off this Mask?

"Hey You EMO ar"
"Don't EMO la"


Whats wrong with this Word "EMO".
(Who the **** invented this ****ing Word)

Yes, I decided to retake, more burden on my Shoulder.
I really do not know how to get up.
No one is helping me to get up.
I know there is someone out there, just that I cant be able to see it.
I really need you, but I do not know who are you.
Please help me, Please....

Talking to my parents...
Hello its useless...
They just don't understand.
Maybe ; its me who don't understand them...

I really want to just pack up my bag, and fly off to some where far.
Far away and fine someone to live together with.
Even if its a poor living, as long as I am happy.
To be real happy...




Had finally gonna finish my DNT PROJECT.
Ok is project, The FoLIO is not done yet.

Take a Look,
My great Achievement! My Own Hand, My Own Heart, My Everything.
Ok of course teacher got help abit x=
=.= who dont'






really searching for this person.
still searching...