I had been hiding something deep inside me...
Because of it, I was putting on a mask, which cover the real person.
I do not wish to be like this... but what can I do?
I tried every thing I can do, but all don't seems to work.
From Primary School I been mock, laugh-ed at because of it.

Yes, I admit, I am quite sensitive to that word.
Argh, Picture shows everything.







Yes, I guess you all know what I am talking about now.
" HAHA- you stupid BoGEH "
" Jason What happen to your teeth? "
" You got punch ar, HAHAHA! "

I had enough?! really...
Its a long story, and it all start when I was just a primary school kid.
I bear whatever critism people say me...
I bear whatever words people bombarded on me...
I bear it all on myself.
I did not say back, i just.. keep it to myself


Till now, A 16 Years Old.
I did not tell my parents how I feel,about how people say about me.
Why? I don't know why...
I had already lose trust from them

I had went to see a specialist.
& yes, to fix these thing... It cost a bomb.
I am trying so save it, myself.
Yes Myself.
to solve the problem, I need to undergo surgery.

And now in my social life...
Whenever I meet new people
I don't know what people think about me.
Sometime to hide my flaws, people made a funny joke,
Inside me I wanted to laugh out, but how? I do not want to show it.
When I just came in to my Sec School Life. People say I am a retard.
I dont smile.
Seeing other people with beautiful smile, really hit me, hey why are u like this

I am trying really hard.
Yes, it might not be a problem to anyone of you.
But its my problem. Everyone has different kind of difficulty.

I had told a few of my trusted friend about it.
I was relieved that they did not laugh at me like those silly childish people.
They look concerned & I do treasure them.

till now its still hard for me to ...
I don't know how to explain.
I just feel a little down today, and really wanted to say this little piece of secret.

I just bear it alone, myself.
Covering with a mask.
I shall get back to me homework, tomorrow still have test.
bye.


people say I am cute, I am whatever, sorry, I am just a ugly duckling..
bearing this piece of secret when I was 11,
thus i really hate those people who personal attack people,
especially to my friend. I will kill you!
it took me alot of courage to click"publishpost"
i don't know how to conquer this...